its 3 in the afternoon on a Thursday and I am hung over. what happened to my tolerence? i used to be able to at least judge how much i could consume without totally losing it. now i'm all over the place. sucky.
i went out for Karen's birthday last night. she just turned 21 and we had a lot of fun. i went out with the boy and his friends. they are so much fun and utterly hilarious. the boy and i are doing well i suppose. i don't really know what to say about that. i guess the truth is that i'm terribly afraid right now. he came into my life right when i was trying to get rid of that pesky broken hearted feeling that was tugging at me from all sides. i still have that feeling sometimes... well, more than sometimes but it's becoming less. he's a good guy. he treats me like a princess. i don't deserve to be treated so well, honestly. i'm following him down this road tho and we'll see where it goes. i don't wanna give up on someone who is great because of someone who completely broke me. then i'm the fool and i'm alone.
note to you, if you ever read this: i hope you're doing well. i miss talking to you. i almost sent you a message the other day but stopped myself. i dunno how to be OK with what happened but i'm trying to move on. doing the best i can anyhow. i hope you're happy out there. there's a song i wanted you to listen to but it just seems ridiculous now... maybe some day. i hope she's treating you right.
signing off - have a good night cyber world.
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